How time distorts things:

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 06:17:38 GMT

i am in a hotel room in huntsville, alabama and i'm not quite sure how i got here.
i don't even care anymore! i'm not sure i'll ever get back to california.
fuck bad tv, fuck bad wine, fuck the rain, fuck airplanes.

sucks!

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 02:04:57 GMT

i feel confused.

i want to be alone but there's always people in my room.

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 21:05:19 GMT

i don't even care about you anymore, livejournal. that picture, i don't even look like that anymore. that picture might be five years old.

actually i look exactly the same. and i'm exactly the same as i was five years ago. i suck!

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 21:45:44 GMT

i quit my job.

foodstampz!

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 20:22:08 GMT

i got a job. why am i not more excited??

Sun, 07 Dec 2008 18:57:33 GMT

i can't believe they gave that german guy a double arm transplant and it worked.

i'm in richmondddd.

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 15:40:31 GMT

1500 Farzed Jehani, who owns the popular backpacker haunt, the Leopold Café, told the BBC how it was stormed by gunmen. "Two people from the outside... started firing into the premises," he says. "For a minute it was like firecrackers, but they realised very soon that it wasn't - it was bullets flying. A grenade was thrown into the restaurant which, yes, blew [up]... Two of my waiters died. There was around five or six tourist bodies lying on the floor, as well as five or six Indian people who were lying on the floor, dead."

i can't believe this. this is my favorite restaurant in bombay! last week i ate there for the last time. i know that guy farzed, we joked around a lot, he asked me to go to his sister's wedding with him. i wonder which of the waiters died. all of this is very shocking. i could have stayed. i was going to stay in india, through to december, but i didn't. i just left bombay last week...

and i noticed that they took all the security stuff down at the taj! i even told my mom that when i got home. my mom's work puts her up at that hotel. i stayed there twice. in the palace- the part that's been on fire for two days. everyday it made me think of bombs going off. (i also had just watched that movie vantage point) but then they took the stuff down last week and i laughed at myself for watching too many movies... of course bombs wouldn't go off in bombay...

long live bombay, which i feel in love with, which my heart is bleeding for. and not just the backpackers or the business men in coloba. i am crying for the rickshaw-wallas, and the chai-wallas, and the trash pickers, and even the policemen and the goondas. for all the families who were sleeping on the floor of VT station waiting for their trains when the bombs hit.

can you imagine if 911 went on for two days? and hit restaurants and five star hotels in new york? or grand central station?

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 15:53:02 GMT

i'd like to report that i am all better, but i'm not. i'm still super sick from being in india, and now i have mrsa (staff infection) on top of that. it fucking hurts, too. i'm pissy and anti-social.

palm springs is nice, though. it rained here last night, which is very unusual. i woke up at midnight and watched it rain. this morning there were giant white clouds floating in the mountains. oh wow, there still are. i like it here in the gay desert. it's quiet.

it just sucks that i feel like shit. i want to help cook, but i can't, i'm contagious. i want to swim in the hot tub, but i can't...

in india i resolved to quit complaining so much but it's harder than usual because i have so much more to complain about. haha

varinasty

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 12:43:39 GMT

it's crazy being an american surrounded by not-americans during the elections. everyone from europe seems to know so much more about everything than i do. they are teaching me about my country. but i don't know much about my country. last night i got in a fight with an israeli about what state the grand canyon is in and we placed bets and he won. fuck, i'm so ignorant.

so yeah i'm still in india. im in varanasi, the most exploding and awe inspiring city in the world. that i've ever seen anyway. if things were different, with everything, with money, i'd stay forever. i'd get an apartment overlooking the ganges for 25 US dollars a month, enroll in hindi courses and learn to play the sitar or some shit. then i'd move to rajistan and teach english for the rest of my days.

alas, i must leave on friday and go to bodhagaya (sp?). i haven't met any other travelers that have gone there, but i'm pretty excited. maybe you will never see me again. maybe i will move into a monestary. maybe i will never leave india and will never return to the states.

that would be nice. i will come back eventually. in the mean time:

IF ANYONE WANTS TO SEND DONATIONS TO KEEP TAYLOR IN INDIA LONGER PLEASE SEND A WESTERN UNION TO THE SHANTI GUESTHOUSE IN VARANASI, UTTAR PREKESH, INDIA. EMAIL MEELOSAINT@HOTMAIL.COM FOR HER FULL NAME, MAILING ADDRESS, AND DATE OF BIRTH.

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 07:46:30 GMT

I JUST RODE FRMO MUMBAI TO GOA ON A MOTORCYCLE AND I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED.

yay

and i got a tattoo

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 11:14:10 GMT

india smells so bad.

there are cows, monkies, naked babies. the things i saw today were too beautiful/horrifying to describe on livejournal. this city is the whole world. i can't even believe how crowded it is. i can't even believe how colorful everything is. yet so fucking brown.

shit, i'll just show you pictures when i get back.

going to see a movie.

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 17:43:13 GMT

uhhhhh. everything's so weird.
recovering from sid and feeling like shit. i'm being cranky. i said mean things to my mom.

does anyone have any short term solutions for my life?

or

does anyone want to be my rich benefactor?

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 14:05:51 GMT

mostly i've been just thinking fuck everything lately. everything sucks, life is empty and meaningless and empty and meaningless and empty and meaningless.

then i found out i'm going to india next week. should cure my restlessness.

dude.

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 08:00:22 GMT

oh god
what ima do now

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 22:22:49 GMT

oh man

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 22:57:36 GMT

i am really nervous about hurricane gustav.

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 17:53:21 GMT

unfun stuff that happened so far this summer:

going to jail
getting staff infection
that night when david smashed a beer bottle over that guy's head
being really depressed for a few days
san diego
seeing jerry's mom

awesome things that happened so far this summer:

riding trains
seeing chris stillborn
oakland xgogolplex
figuring out the point of life the first time
figuring out the point of life the second time
having inner paradigm shifts
going to red rock at corona heights in san francisco

i'm in palm springs and i'm doing pretty well. i have all these crazy ideas in my head.

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 07:17:15 GMT

BLOW SHIT UP! DESTROY AND DEMOLISH THINGS. DISINTEGRATE LIFE.

more on that later.

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:47:08 GMT

tomorrow i am leaving for san francisco. the days aren't long enough. my sister is in town. the thoughts that ran through my head for the last week amazed me, suprised me. something inside of me is changing without my permission.

sometimes it's good to be alone for a long time. i'm not sure what will happen next.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 03:50:08 GMT

every cup of coffee is god.

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 10:39:26 GMT

uh oh, i stayed up all night again. made friends with a philosophy professor from vanderbuilt. i begged god to bring me a friend like him and god totally delivered.

leaving for my trip in one week. ready to travel to great american cities. ready to move from state to state. all my friends are going to miss me and i'm really, really going to miss all of them. i think i'll miss my dogs more though.

there is nothing, nothing cooler in the entire world than choosing to accept the world exactly as it is. it is so good to get older and realize that being apathetic and acting like everything sucks doesn't make you cool.

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 07:21:43 GMT

it's really hard to doubt the presence of a higher power at this point. it's like when you're reading murder mystery and throughout the book there are clues that only the most perceptive and intuitive readers can pick up on. just little details and patterns that you couldn't really articulate into words but in your brain they just make sense.

this summer i will travel from "state" to "state." e.j. gold is a messiah.

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 08:26:34 GMT

hey eugene, what's your address?? i found something i really want to mail to you.

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 09:15:17 GMT

it's four oclock in the morning and i am doing my what has become my nightly ritual. this ritual consists of drinking water and eating fruit while i look up weird things on the internet, read books, and obsess on maps. sometimes i do automatic writing. that's one of my new favorite things to do.

tomorrow i am leaving for gatlinburg. some friends and i are renting a cabin for the weekend. i am excited.

i have been working on my back handspring for some time now. i just can't seem to do it fast enough. does anyone know how to do one and have some advice?

GOD WHAT IMA DO NOW

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 07:08:46 GMT

today was sick. i have the best fucking friends in the world. sometimes everything is so good you wouldn't change anything. you wouldn't change where you are, who you're with, the song on the radio, anything.

i'm going to miss everything in nashville so much when i leave this summer, but i wouldn't change leaving for anything in the world.